If someone has read Revolution 2020, Chetan Bhagat
has very beautifully and accurately described the Agony of mediocre Rankers.
The drop years are definitely not very easy ones.
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Though in my story of drop, there never were such
moments when I felt tempted to the comforts. Once in a while the luxury of cozy
bed was definitely welcome but most of the times I was determined. I was clear
in my head that I might not be a brilliant student with a very sharp intellect
but still I was hard working. Hard work had always been my strength and so I
had to study as hard as I could.
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Getting up at 6 in the morning and attending hectic
classes had become a routine and I had got quite accustomed to it. Coming back
by lunchtime, I used to have an hour’s rest. After that the daily dose of learning
lessons, revising class notes and solving questions would start. It would go on
mostly with short 5 min breaks in between. It would continue upto tea time. Tea
time was a welcome break. After some refreshment, again the same schedule would
repeat, of practicing questions, of going through notes till dinner time would
come.
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Life was set in such monotonous and busy routine. Day
after day, the D-day would approach near. And with that the anxiety would also
double.
Time just flies. Soon the D-day had finally arrived.
Whatever effort you might have put in the entire
year, nobody would see your effort. It is only what you do in those 3 hours
duration, would carry weight. Nobody would talk about your efforts but they
would definitely talk about your results.
As I came out of the hall, I knew I had messed up.
The test had not gone well. And there was no point in citing any excuses also.
It had been bad and the story ended here itself. I could not entertain any
what’s and why’s.
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I was into tears when I came out of the hall. Sitting
in the bus to head back to the hostel, I was all teary eyed. It was a feeling
of my whole world just collapsing. I could not think through anything. I could
not call home and could not even return their calls.
My friends told me to go home for a change. The next
day, I boarded the very first bus to home.
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When I reached home, my parents did not once ask me
anything about the test. They expressed concern over my health. I was served
food specially made for me. And even when I started to talk about the test,
they just silenced me and told me that such things also happen sometimes. They said
some wise things and told me to take it easy. I can’t express how much relieved
I felt. The day before I was struggling to find some meaning in my existence, I
was cursing myself. But being at home changed my feelings entirely. Whoever and
whatever I was, I was still important for my family. I didn’t talk much, but it
was the feeling of being together that gave me strength to move on.
The next few days I spent at home doing nothing, no
books to study and no test to think about. I just watched TV, sat in leisure,
ate a lot. I just stayed, stayed together with my family.
It’s the power of togetherness, the power of family
that re-instilled my faith in myself.
It is this unique and special power of togetherness of the family that I always look upto.
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together, https://housing.com
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