Saturday, April 9, 2011

talking to myself...

am feeling all blue today..feels like i want to go into some silent lonely place far far away.....away from everyone..just somewhere in isolation..i don't even want to talk or not even think..
i am wondering how it would be like when i will be free, free as in completely free from everything..i mean i don't really know what do i want from my life..i don't even know what i am up to..i am like a liquid which would take the shape of any vessel in which its put into.i wish i could know what is it that i originally am when poured out from these vessels into the open space, freed from all the boundaries then what will be the shape that I own... i don't have any zest for life..not even a thing..i feel so purposeless..n i don't have even anybody to talk to..i have never been able to be good at relationships..i simply cannot be..i always take all the decisions that come my way on the basis of a toss..i have thousand dreams..n yet all seem so unrealistic..n i am not even sure of a thing..seems like my thoughts always lead me to crossroads.. even when its simple, sometimes i make it so complicated..i wish i could think a little bit lesser..
i don't know but i have to mention this thought from the movie eat pray love which was termed as the physics of quest as a conclusion to it all - A force in nature governed by the laws as real as real the laws of gravity is dere. if u r brave enough to leave behind everything familiar and comforting which can be anything from your house to bitter, old resentments and set out on a truth seeking journey either externally or internally and if you are truly willing to regard evrything that happens to you on that journey as a clue and if you accept everyone you meet along as a teacher and if you are prepared most of all to face and forget some very difficult realities about yourself then the truth will not be withheld from you...

P.S : have a nice day all !!however just few of you but you people have become a part of my life in such a strange way!!! thanku all !!
its here that i pour out some of my feelings that i don't speak out often...


  1. Awwww......Hugs..

    I had like to say the same..go for yourslef..hav loads of masti...

    cause what you said did worked for me and here,i am back with a smilee....thanks to u..

    and i am sure u'll be back soon...

  2. happens dear...many a times....n not just with you...but many others like me...when we feel lonely,desolated,irritated....we cry....n then wipe off our tears by's life....

    i'm late....hope u r fine now :)

  3. @nikita : i am not self earning :P bt luv u for ur sweet advice!! :)
    @B.A : yeah short n simple koi na.. vrybdy's favorite word outhere... :)
    @saumya : yeah sure ;) i think happens with me quite a lot!!!!! :P

  4. Hey, Hi
    well, the blues, this colour is so frequent in our lives...i guess its gods favourite colour to paint.. :(
    and i sincerely hope he does realize that, we need other more vibrant colours to paint our lives.. :D
    dont worry, a perfect life aint that good too...little blues does pass... :)

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