*The Love and The Fall*

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There he is,

Unaffected by it all;

He was playing with me,

Waiting for my fall;

The broken promises and the lost love,

Make me think about his ruthless heart;

His love and care was my misconception,

He was only pushing me into his addiction.

There he is,

Unaffected by it all;

He was playing with me,

Waiting for my fall;

My mornings became sad,

Without holding his hand;

My evenings became empty,

Not listening to his ranting;

The pain is deep,

It affects my soul;

It penetrates deep within,

To each part of my whole.

There he is,

Unaffected by it all;

He was playing with me,

Waiting for my fall;

My suffering reached to the brim,

It still does not move him;

He cares in the least for my tears,

My wailing cries still do not reach his ears;

There he is,

Unaffected by it all;

He was playing with me,

Waiting for my fall;

I look back,

Think about his smile;

Oh! I still love him,

His ruthless betrayal still does not rile;

For him it was a game,

On this thought, I do feel lame;

But I can’t stop loving him,

In the lights bright and dim.

There he is,

Unaffected by it all;

He was playing with me,

Waiting for my fall;

Hope sometimes can lead you to perils,

I still wish

There are good reasons behind his devils;

To move on is not so easy,

When your feelings make you dizzy.

The broken promises and the lost love,

Make me think about his ruthless heart;

His love and care was my misconception,

He was only pushing me into his addiction.

There he is,

Unaffected by it all;

He was playing with me,

Waiting for my fall.

*That Gal!*

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I wanna be that gal who loves herself a lot to be seeking it outside,

Yet I am somewhere in between, trying to discover the love that is inside;

I wanna be that gal who knows to let go of things and of people,

Yet I am somewhere in between, letting go but still holding on deep inside;

I wanna be that gal who does more and thinks less,

Yet I am somewhere in between, trying to find co-ordination between thoughts and actions;

I wanna be that gal who finds meaning in living for herself,

Yet I am somewhere in between, struggling to find a meaning of living every other day;

I wanna be that gal who is self-contained, poised and disciplined,

Yet I am somewhere in between, juggling to overcome the sluggishness of routine;

I wanna be that gal who is confident and self-sufficient,

Yet I am somewhere in between, trying to collect the bits and pieces of confidence that keep flying around every now and then;

I wanna be that gal who does not expect anything from people or life,

Yet I am somewhere in between, trying to cut-short the expectations which surface despite the efforts to suppress them;

I wanna be that gal who is not afraid of having perceptions and views of her own,

Yet I am somewhere in between, justifying the righteousness of these views to self on encountering even the slightly deviating views;

I wanna be that gal 

who loves herself, 

who lives for herself, 

who is not afraid of being herself;

I wanna be that gal 

who loves and lives without expectations, 

who is not afraid of coming out of the stereotype, 

who lives on her own terms,

who is not afraid of looking at the world with her own eyes…………

I wanna be that gal………….